I am super excited about my group prayer meeting tonight. I am thankful for the sisters who are helping me in the admin department cause I literally don't think I could do it without them.
I was always shying away from the thought of leading in anyway. It was fear, among other things. I had to understand the role of a leader. A leader does not dictate. They allow themselves to be a vessel used to lead people to the Father and the son. I had to learn to set proper boundaries in my life and my interactions with those I fellowship with. I remember crying to Moreh Duane, saying, "Why they keep saying I am leading, I am not leading, I am fellowshipping" That was when he said to me in the wise way he does, "did you use your phone to establish the group?" And I said, "yes Moreh, I did" he then said, "well, your are leading then" and then he gave me sound advice and left it up to me to leave it or take it. It took some time to synch in, I will admit. I lost some members while I was trying to figure it out, and that is fine because now I understand that it was Abba shifting things and causing them to work for the good of those specifically called to fellowship with me. I remember my former Morah telling me that Yah would send the right people and that I would not have to look for them. She said Yah would send them, and that is exactly what he did. My sisters are no joke either. They are Kingdom Warrior Queens frfr. By the way; Kingdom Warrior Queen by Kendra DeLarge is available on Amazon, I recommend it to any leading, its a good read 📚 Anyway, after about 3 of the sisters left the group I was devastated. Then when I found out some other things had taken place I was like oh naaaah I'M DONE! It was my former Morah and my natural Ama that Yah used to encourage me. Once I recovered from the hurt of what I thought was betrayal, abandonment, and rejection, I heard from Ab Yahauh and got the strength I needed to press on. At first, I was so hurt and frustrated because I loved everyone who was a part of the initial prayer chat so deeply. Moreh was not available to give me more counsel and let me have the crying sessions I would have (cause I am a cry baby frfr)It was time to.grow up and and quickly. I was like why is this happening? Ab Yah, if you called me to do this such a time as this, , please help me cause I feel like I am going to faint. I depended on them and they left me. What did I do wrong? why is this happening? I later realized that Abba only had them there for a season. Rest assured, I still love them all just the same, but I needed to be able to adhere to the move, shift, and will of Yah concerning the mantle He was placing on me. I say all this to say, if you have been called to lead, lead, if you are called to.suppprt, support. People, places, and things may change, but Yah is the same today, yesterday, and forever. If He called you, best believe He knew what He was doing. If you grow too comfortable with leaning on people more than you kean on Him, He will move things around to get you right where He needs you to be to accomplish the assignment He has given you to accomplish. It is Yah who sends you to lead, and it is Yah who will sit you right on down. And just because people walk away from you don't mean they don't love you. Now, in all honesty, everyone that say they love you with their mouth don't necessarily love you with true love, some love conditionally. But that is a talk for another time. The bottom line is to stay encouraged, stay to the course, and obey Abba in what He tells you to do.
I hope this helps somebody 🙌🏾⚘️🧎🏾♀️
